7:57 PM email to Porter (1/14/19)

Post 15 WCO
Wed, Jan 14, 2009 at 7:57 PM

Hey Porter.

Thanks again for the advice. And thanks for putting up with my 'venting'.

I wish this had never become a w/c issue in the first place. When it happened, I was expecting to make an appointment with Dr. Feelgood and go from there. But I thought I should send a message on the Qualcomm about it in case I couldn't make the delivery in CT. The weekend person said to call our safety guy on Monday - it happened on a Saturday night. The safety guy turned me over to the benefits girl, and it snowballed from there. Once it became a w/c issue, I couldn't see my own doctor, etc., and AMX came and took my truck. Now I wish I hadn't sent that message on the Qualcomm in the first place. I just didn't know it'd be so ... difficult dealing with worker's comp issues.

What upsets me the most is that nobody in the worker's comp circle cares that I'm in pain, and they don't care that it's possible something really is wrong. And now there's nowhere to turn. If I'd kept it to myself, and dealt with it my own way, I'd still have a little breathing room. I could have worked with Dr. Feelgood and my dispatcher, stringing appointments along every week or so, until I could find out what's really wrong. But now I have nowhere to turn, and nobody medically inclined who gives a damn. Dr. Feelgood would have at least acted like he cared. It makes me want to "dig in my heels", as you said, and say "Whoa! wait a minute!!"

But I don't want to lose this job, so I'll do whatever it takes to keep it. Other issues here at the house are incentives to keep the OTR job as well - I'm tired of being put in the middle of things I have no control over. So I am coming around, and my attitude is changing. It's like I said - I just feel like I have nowhere to turn with my shoulder now, and nobody who gives a damn.

Thanks again, Porter. Lots of love,